I have done some amazing things in my lifetime. When I think back on some of the things I have accomplished I am very proud of myself. Physical feats, relationship growth, career stamina, financial goals. All my life I was able to set my mind on something and not stop until I had made it happen. Until now.
Right now I am in my 4th year of health coaching and working in network marketing, and I see other coaches that started a year or two or three years ago and they have surpassed me. I look at my business and wonder why has it taken so long for me to fully understand the process? Why haven’t I been able to make it full time sooner?
But those are the wrong questions. People often count their failures rather than their successes. Tracking our mistakes doesn’t get us anywhere. So as I stand and face my own lack of self discipline, I have to know why I am trying. I have to remember the things that helped me complete that year of triathlons, those 5 years of teaching, and that fearful paddle on the Missouri River.
When I did those things, I BELIEVED in something. I believed in the importance of them and I was more scared of NOT doing them than I was of the actual completion. Every part of my character was set on accomplishing that goal.
So why do I want to be more disciplined than ever before? Why do I want to work 16 hours a day between two jobs? Why do I want to spread the word about the health and fitness programs I am doing and the business opportunity that comes with Beachbody? Why do I want to keep inviting, blogging, painting, and marketing my business every day?
Because I believe in enjoying the work that you do. I believe in doing something that has a significant impact on other peoples lives. I believe that changing ourselves and our lives begins with our health. I believe that health and nutrition can beat depression. I believe that working a job you hate and paying bills that keep you trapped is not the right way to live. I believe in the freedom to go see the world. I believe in the community of positive minded coaches that I work with. I believe in the products that I recommend to help people live healthier.
I believe that there is a freedom out there I can’t even imagine because I have yet to experience it. I don’t know what financial freedom feels like, I don’t know what wealth feels like. I don’t know what a savings cushion feels like. I don’t know what it feels like to be completely self sufficient and location independent, but I believe that it’s worth the fight.
I believe that finding self discipline now will free me to experience life in a way I can’t even fathom. It sucks to work for something I can’t fully understand. All I know is work, hard work, and financial struggle. I unconsciously revert to that mindset and that lifestyle. I have been able to travel and volunteer and experience this world, but I know there is a better way, or at least other ways. The way I have been doing it has been successful, but I have done it this way out of necessity.
What if there is another way? Something much better? When I get there I will let you know if it was worth it. But the only way to get there is to be more disciplined than I have ever been in my life. This doesn’t just take time or energy, this is more than a fitness competition or a fight against mother nature. This is a fight against all of myself. I have to grow in ways that are harder than any physical feat. I have to be fit, be healthy, be determined, wake up with a purpose and a determination greater than ever before. I have to master health and nutrition, leadership, marketing, and daily consistency.
So I do it because I believe in my ability to help others, and I believe that there is a better life out there waiting for me if I will just embrace self discipline. It’s not a plan, it is a dream that I believe in.
This blog post is in response to Natalie’s 10 Day Freedom Plan Blog Challenge Day 2.